sepTUNESber, day four

so today's song may be showing a side of me that's a little embarrassing and vulnerable, but hey, 

what are blogs for, right?

day four.

"A Song That Makes You Sad"

i'm going to give a little background story on this so you don't judge me based only on the song selection.

when i was eighteen, the hubs and i had been dating for two years and knew we wanted to get married.

we'd had our ups and downs and our breaks 

(we were on a break!) 

here and there, but i had known for a while this was it.

 i was in it for the long haul.

unfortunately, there was this one issue.

this one nagging problem we couldn't seem to shake.

we'd get in a fight.

go on a break.

not be able to live without each other.

talk about it until the sun came up.

and start over.

but this time was different.

i couldn't take it anymore.

so i decided to break it off and thought i was going to actually have to move on this time.

be done and start over.

this crushed me.

and even though the lyrics are her begging for him back.

i knew this was just a wish. and i would have to move on, which made it hurt even worse.

so that being said...

 remember that i was eighteen.

and heartbroken. 

and it was 2004.

pre - milly vanilly SNL shenanigans.

i know her voice isn't amazing. and the music isn't amazing, but the lyrics are what really resonated with me.

they're a little emo i admit, but i can still listen to this song and sing every word and feel it all over again.

there are times where i actually find myself crying if this song pops up in my shuffle mode and i don't change it. 

tmi? oh well.

so the song i've chosen is...

Ashlee Simpson - Undiscovered

did you like the emo yelling at the end? i know you did. 

obviously, the hubs and i made it through.

we were engaged 9 months later.

and still working on it.

see you tomates!

(tomates = tomorrow, don't ask.)